Melancholy

Feeling melancholic again tonight...cause I'm thinking about that stuff again...

Sometimes, I wonder why I torture myself so much...

Of course I want to be happy with my life as much as any other person out there...but why did I have to choose such a hard way to go about it.... :(

It's not just hard, but it now seemingly borders on the impossible day by day....

Just seeing you happy makes me happy but it hurts as well at the same time...

I'm missing the older days...back when we can just talk about any stuff.

At the least I can still say, Good night. Even when you can't seem to hear it anymore...it's the thought that counts right? :(